Who am I? What am I doing here? Are these questions posed merely by spiritually established personalities or have some of us asked this to ourselves as well?
I come across this challenge, time and again. Actually, quite often. Even spiritual paths have several ego traps awaiting a seeker of wisdom. I want to be missed, appreciated, and made to feel so special with all the attention I can get all the time. I’d feel miserable and jealous if I don’t.
It has always been the ‘I’ that has kept one from oneness and infiniteness.
I don’t want to get philosophical here, but we could perceive the ego as the prison. The Sikhs, I learn, call it the homei. In Samskritam, it’s called the ‘aham’. It is our ‘lower-self’, a barrier we raise between us and our ‘higher self’, or the superconsciousness. Have we noticed how often we use the word ‘I’ in our expressions? Yes, that’s the ‘Kingdom of I’.
We all hold on to some attachment or the other, more often many of them than just one, and make it significant to us. Collectively, all of them attribute to what we call our identity or our ego. It’s alright to have all of this as long as we remember that it restrains us from moving on.
This identity of ours is the story we tell others as well as ourselves. It’s born from a path of exclusion and leads to competition. But, do we really need a story to tell?
Moreover, competition is futile to anyone who runs his own race. Why validate ourselves based on relative performance? What if our journey isn’t the same as anyone else?
We’re social bodies, as Humans. And our social network is usually online or at parties these days. It’s beautiful that we get to know each other by so many platforms.
You know what else is beautiful? Oneness.
At some point, we all realize that our egos can never be satisfied and that an identity crisis is just one of its many tsunamis. We’re not perfect. At least we can be one and infinite. Shall we?
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